Wednesday, July 28, 2004
i had my ibs 1st call presentation today..and because of that 10 min plus presentation, i had to wear formal n i mean really formal with a coat.. (thanx eun for lending me ur whole suit) and i hate walking with heels cos i can teven walk properly with normal slipper.. luckily i meet my classmate to go sch together..
i had my presentation n i got a B- for my grade.. i was quite alrite with my grade but i feel that i could have done better.. haiz.. but its over..teacher thinks that i am not paying attention to wat he say becos more often then not i am thinking of wat to say next.. which always happen to me when i am nervous.. ok.. i promise myself.. i must do better for my 2nd call presentation which is like in abt 2 weeks time.. i must get at least B+...
did my tarot card reading by aud.. i feel kind of regret aft doing it cos aft hearing wat the tarot cards say, i sort of feel uncertain of wat future holds for me in terms of everything.. anyway its quite true for certain things.. like its say that i have big pride which is so correct.. its say that i am lonely.. hmm.. i think so..but jus that i keep running away n not wanting to face it..i mean reality.. n when aud doing the tarot reading for me, i kind of fear it.. fear of wat card i wil open next cos i nv noe wat it wil be.. jus like u nv noe wat wil come ot u in life.. a moment u have it, the next moment its g.o.n.e....
i feel scared of the cards now whenever i think of it.. but like wat aud told me.. i must show respect to the tarot cards.. :)
my darling send me home n i talk to him quite a lot abt the past, present and future.. n i was so tired but i still insist on coming online to write my blog..
i think thru jus now.. i must learn to accept ppl whom i used to dislike or ppl whom i used to have bad impression abt.. i wil change my perception of them.. i WILL.. i wan to be nicer to everyone.. I WAN to think logically n i shall stop doubting others/myself so much n i wil stop asking WHY.. C-H-A-N-G-E.... ----> A new me.. pls guide me along ppl..
today i had my ibs lec n i think i benefit a lot thru the ibs lec today.. no matter how many time i fail in sth.. the ans to success is too........ try again lor.. keep tryin n tryin..if u nv try hard enuff.. u will not get wat u wan.. my teacher told me stories abt being perservering... i feel inspired by it.. i hope its not onli a thinking that i developed n wil forget soon.. but i wan it to stay on in me forever.. becos i noe.. there is more failures that i have to meet in time to come.... in term of reletionship in general, in magnum, in my proj.. i must try again try agin try agin... :>
gd nite everyone.. don forget to try again... see u guys tml...
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